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The contrast

I was glancing at the road while going down in the lift, I saw a young lad (much younger than me), dressed in heavy smart casual, carrying a heavy partially worn out luggage bag, with two items in his hand.

He was a young sales man, working under scorching sun abiding to unfair obligation of the uniform, trying keep up the living.

Kept me thinking!

He must be holding a greater share of his family's income, making him a vital bread earner. Given the current market and employment conditions of sales force, his earnings would be on meager level.

Yet his commitment shown firm and rigid, he was glazing through the crowd towards the bus-stop or some place, where he could make a sale and meet his target and save his job and provide for his family.

May be his day get ends soon, but tomorrow will be whole another day, where the same agony, for him a life sustaining activity will be continued. it will not end there, for considerable time period of his life time, until he gives up and get promoted for a much forgiving position, this will continue.

Probably he will be responsible for his destiny, probably he did not give enough attention and thought to his work, education and life, even though other elements were provided to adequate level. Or probably, he did not receive any of this and he would probably glad of him self as he did not end up in streets.

Probably.

Yet, great inspiration for the observer, my self of course, might not be a positive one but would probably be a sigh of relief in comparison to his current life situation.

I think, probably not about most rewarding, exciting things, yet it keeps my brain busy, just giving the leverage to just to live a day!

Striking out the balance and then failing.

Past will probably haunt you in present. May be demanding the what is due all time to be paid. Do not know who keeps the tab on actual settlement!!!, yet for a struggling individual, like me this is huge.
One may or may not done things which attracts certain categorization in terms of good or bad. May be one has done mostly good stuff and very few bad, or may be other way round. it is imperative that, we as normal people are with certain expectations that those deeds tend to realize in favorable gains and rewards and cherish. Yet it is not.
You may not sell heroine, does not involve in flesh trade or cheat the innocent out for capital gains, yet you suffer to the maximum sometimes.
You may have pawned you jewelries so that immediate expenses of your loved ones are met, but it ended up been a burden to you with sort of suffering.
This is more of an example that, life is not fair and equal opportunity. Yet, it is not totally explainable on matter of how it actually works. We have phrases and ethics to promote good behavior by the book, but little convincing in part of actual practicality.
You see many, drug loads, cheaters and murders roam freely and indulge in greater luxury on sweat and blood of victims thus no repercussion what so ever.
Is it the manner society, world works ? is there a evolutionary explanation attached where the cultural and acceptable social norms fails to address ? not a clue my friends!
Now what is now ? do turn rogue like "Breaking Bad" ? will that solve everything for you ? whom to guess and suggest ?
Are we on a evolutionary change shift that human cultural and social aspects tend for an overhaul change ?
I'm battling my self to get some answers as life is a battle for me. Its hard and reluctant to give me some piece of mind, where i get to crash with people, dues and stigmas and prevail good.
I just want to see the end of the tunnel, but it seems not appearing or am I failing to see it ???

In control of your self !!!!

What is the end of achievement in this material world. Of course, we could done our selves with the achievement of  Nirvana, yet we will be fortunate enough to attain that, it is wise enough to be good with the life we are spending as much extent possible.

People comes to your life, stay variable length of time and go as modes of demise and non-demise. Some we fall in love, some to fall in pray, some just get ignored. Actually our lives revolves and moves with the interactions and communications we keep with the people around. We don't keep relation with others, it is quite freaky, if so.

We define our lives based on the quality and degree of relationships we keep with others, thus making them decide who you are. This is the actual reason for intimidation we possess on all of our actions. Will this be approved ? Do I look ok ? etc etc. This mumble jumble, gives good as well as the bad. 

It is spineless to say, I'm been controlled, but fact to the matter is we are, for every single way, unless you are in control of your self for most possible extent.

Now what ? we keep getting intimidated, controlled and make us do good and bad both. Now what ? seriously.

We need to choose the correct people and be with them.

Choose what do you like in which way, then choose the people, that is the best way to be in control your self! seriously!!!

My self ...!

Now who was I? 

I was the son of a hardworking middle class teachers, whom whole life was planned on the success of their children.

I did my school well, attended the class well, never misused or missed any classes. Basically, none done out of ordinary and according to format asked for.
Now, where am I, what am I ?
Struggling with never ending list of needs and commitments, basically, a given 24 hours is somewhat overworking shift clubbed with disappointment of not meeting and receiving the required share end up, fall of short.
But i'm alive, yet to live day after another, do the best i can to the very extent.
 

Is enough is really enough ?

"Thanha", desire works in levels one could not predict at best given chances of chances.

You think at one level that all is been done and achieved to your expectations, yet the environment of your world changes, you reset your mind followed by your expectations and desires.

No wonder, Buddha's word on desire and its elimination, stands tall with eternal truth.

This feeling of un-comfort, grinds you and challenges you in levels and times which are quite difficult to handle. A mishandling little bit, would stumble you and would make you suffer.

Apart from eliminating the desire, what could be done ? nothing permanent yet handling them case and case and be positive about it way to go!